The England supporter in me was broken a long time ago - so much so I feared I may have left it behind for good.
But Harry Kane n Co put on the perfect show on Saturday night to stir some long-dormant emotions.
The 3-2 comeback win against Germany in Berlin might have just been one of those results. You know the sort that happen in friendlies but never major tournaments?
But, with the manner of the win, it could be one of those moments so often falsely attributed to Three Lions teams - a turning point.
Regardless what it turns out to be, it was entertaining and it was fun. And, in years gone by, that was what being an England fan was all about.
It was about running over the park to recreate Gazza's goal – and his celebration.
It was being in the pub at 10am surrounded by flags and boozed up fun-time Frankies.
It was precocious young stars like Wayne Rooney and Michael Owen scoring goals you didn’t see coming.
But for me that all changed during the 2006 World Cup. We had just beaten Ecuador in the last 16 as a Becks free-kick swept another drab performance under the carpet.
I was stood in the middle of a packed out, bleary-eyed and hug-happy Yates's bar. Everyone else was toasting our progression to another quarter-final. But all I remember thinking was, "That wasn't football. It just wasn't very good."
Drunken friends put their arm around me and wailed in my ear: "We won the game mate, that's all that matters."
But it wasn’t. This was International football. It was meant to be the pinnacle and I was struggling to enthuse over a side whose inspiration stretched only to sideways passes, long balls and 25-yard free-kicks.
It proved to be the start of a national loss of faith and patience as the entertainment was sapped out of being an England fan.
It was now about mega-rich players going through the motions. It was about the FA throwing money at managers then undermining them when it mattered.
It was big names being “bored" at a World Cup and Rooney shouting at the fans down a TV camera.
It was tuning in for countless walkover qualifiers knowing your evening could be better spent.
This wasn't supporting England. This was a right royal stress.
But last night was different. We had good honest hard-working stars from the Premier League's top two teams scoring terrific goals in a performance that lasted 90 minutes and then some.
We may have had to come from 2-0 down but we were the better team from start to finish.
Rather than hanging our hopes on one or two stars, we have talent willing to step up all over the pitch.
Dele Alli was brilliant and Harry scored a fantastic goal that even paid tribute to the late, great Johan Cruyff and Eric Dier got the winner. What more could a Spurs fan ask for? Jamie Vardy’s equaliser wasn’t bad either.
It might not have meant anything in the grand scheme of things and it might not set us on the road to Euro 2016 glory. But it was what supporting your national team should be all about – just a bloody brilliant night.
And what’s more it gave me hope that my inner England fan might not be dead and buried after all.